Mission or No Mission

 It seems that lately more and more the topic of a mission is brought up to me. I have always thought a mission would be awesome and when I was a senior in high school I had a couple months that I really thought and prayed about it and then bam more mistakes where made on my part and a mission was no longer a desire... But now lately I'm getting that feeling again. However I have moments that I don't feel like its the right thing and I don't know whether its me doubting my worthiness to serve or whether it is The Lord telling me that it is not the right thing to do... I wish this were easier I'm so confused and at this moment I wish The Lord worked in not so mysterious ways... However I do have about 8 months to figure it out so I guess we will see what The Lord has in store for me!! 

Till next time 

Jay 

My rules for life...

So i'm driving back to school after a long weekend in Tooele and you know those drives when every song that comes on the radio is one of your favorites... well that was my drive tonight... one after another of all my all time favorite songs. Which then leads to one of the greatest songs of all time... Lee Ann Womack's I Hope You Dance... Obviously this song leads every person who listens to it to ponder on there life... so tonight as i'm doing my own pondering I start thinking of my rules of life... what is my motto for life? I think back to thing awesome idea I had when I moved up here to Logan and started school for those of you who know me i'm a HUGE ncis fan and on ncis the head boss has Rules... they are basically his way of life his motto's for lack of a better term and when I started school I thought it would be amazing if I came up with some rules for myself... rules that I could live by... so here they are inspired by NCIS and Lee Ann Womack's song I Hope You Dance as well as many other little people who I will mention by each rule... Jayden's Rules for Life...

1. Say I Love You because you never know when someone will be gone... Miss you grandpa not a day goes by!! 

2. Always ask yourself "is it the right thing to do?"

3. Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy (stolen from a qoute that was shared with my friend Cinda by another friend Kody) 

4. Dream HUGE cause big just isnt big enough!! 

5. Always say Thank you!

6. Forgive others... its the only way you will get through life! 

7. Be early (my first proffesor Doc. Fronske pounded this rule into my head the first week of school) 

8. Don't be scared to fall in love!! 

9. Cowgirls don't cry... enough said!  

10. Don't forget to pray!

11. Loose yourself in the service of others (inspired by my favorite qoute from Gordon B. Hinkley and my mom) 

12. Live life as it comes don't try to change it!! 

13. Change is good... repeat this as needed cause there is power in repetition (Thanks Heather)  

14. You can't do it alone... trust God let him do his job!!

15. Love is the key to life!! (my high school seminary teacher wrote this in my yearbook I have finally figured out what it means thanks Bro. L) 

16.  Don't regret... anything!! 

17. Treat others with respect even if you don't like them (also pounded into my head by Doc.)

18. Do Hard Things First (the last rule that was pounded in my head by Doc. Fronske... She is awesome!!) 

19. Sometimes Your wrong (inspired by NCIS but also because I have found this to be true more often then not) 

20. Be Yourself!!

I'm still learning new things each day and I know my list of rules will get bigger with each passing day and experience and I can't wait!!

Till next time...
Jayden 

Testimony

My heart is so full of gratitude today... It is soo incredibly amazing to me when I realize how truely the Lord knows me and how much he loves me despite the mistakes I have made. Last time I wrote about moments in which we are speachless well I find myself sitting in one of those moments again today. My tears are overflowing and I am truly speachless. I am soo blessed with such a great life I have some of the most amazing friends and family that stand by my side and serve as my examples through the good and the bad, I have the knowledge and testimony of  this wonderful gospel, and I have a wonderful, merciful, gentle, loving, Savior who forgives me and loves me in some of my darkest hours. I am constantly left in awe at the things that he teaches me each day. I don't always do the right thing actually the more I look back the more I realize very rarely have I done the right things. I have made soo many brutal mistakes that never thought I would find myself making but here I am caught looking back and seeing those mistakes in my past. I slipped and fell so many times, so many times I thought that I would never survive the mistakes I had made, and so many times I was picked up and carried out of the heartbreak I put myself in. I had and continue to ask why? Why would Heavenly Father help me, the one who had caused myself the pain; why should he forgive me?   Why did Christ take it upon himself to free me of all of my sins and mistakes? With each question my testimony grows so much stronger. I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love me with a love that I cannot even fathom or begin to describe and imagine despite the mistakes I have made, and the mistakes I will make. I know they live more than I know anything else on this earth, I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true without a shred of doubt in my mind!! I love this gospel and I love my merciful Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ more than anything else.

Moments...

Wow there is a lot on my mind tonight... Sometimes there comes a point in your life when words don't describe a moment properly or when words don't do something justice... Those moment for me occur at times when my life seems to be in shambles and I'm trying to pick my self up off the floor or at times when i least expect... They're either moment of pure joy, moments of pure pain, or moment when that is exactly what I needed to hear and feel in order to learn something... Either way these moments are perfectly tailored to fit my life situation they are without a doubt in my mind straight from God. These moments show me just how much he loves me and how unconditional that love is... Some of those moments this past week for me were driving to Gunnison for my cousins birthday and being immediately brought back to my last state convention, I was in the passenger seat of the school suburban next to my advisor who was driving, some of my best friends sat in the back and for those who know me you know how big of a deal this one drive would be. Not only was I driving to my last state convention as a high school student but it was also the drive that would bring me closer to the end of a goal I had set my freshman year of high school that goal was to become a State FFA Officer. The whole ride my mind was racing each person in the car did their best to make me feel a little less nervous about what I was about to do... The car ride was filled with laughs, review questions, serious conversations, and finished with a I'm proud of you no matter what speech from my FFA advisor and hero.... Another moment would come last night as I heard about the death of a young man I hardly knew but had been changed by. This moment made me realize that I should have reached outside my comfort zone a little more in high school because them I could have gotten to know this amazing person with the smile that light up every room he walked in and the laugh that was purely contagious and made everyone around want to live life to the fullest... The final moment describes perfectly how much our Heavenly Father knows and loves each of us and makes me great full that I have a testimony of that and that I have a testimony of answered prayers. Sometimes moments change how we look at life and those around us and those moments are the ones that can and will change our lives for the better if we let them... 

So my challenge to you is to pay more attention to the moments that have you speechless and let those moments change your life... Take a leap of faith  and fall into the moments! 

Jay