Testimony

My heart is so full of gratitude today... It is soo incredibly amazing to me when I realize how truely the Lord knows me and how much he loves me despite the mistakes I have made. Last time I wrote about moments in which we are speachless well I find myself sitting in one of those moments again today. My tears are overflowing and I am truly speachless. I am soo blessed with such a great life I have some of the most amazing friends and family that stand by my side and serve as my examples through the good and the bad, I have the knowledge and testimony of  this wonderful gospel, and I have a wonderful, merciful, gentle, loving, Savior who forgives me and loves me in some of my darkest hours. I am constantly left in awe at the things that he teaches me each day. I don't always do the right thing actually the more I look back the more I realize very rarely have I done the right things. I have made soo many brutal mistakes that never thought I would find myself making but here I am caught looking back and seeing those mistakes in my past. I slipped and fell so many times, so many times I thought that I would never survive the mistakes I had made, and so many times I was picked up and carried out of the heartbreak I put myself in. I had and continue to ask why? Why would Heavenly Father help me, the one who had caused myself the pain; why should he forgive me?   Why did Christ take it upon himself to free me of all of my sins and mistakes? With each question my testimony grows so much stronger. I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love me with a love that I cannot even fathom or begin to describe and imagine despite the mistakes I have made, and the mistakes I will make. I know they live more than I know anything else on this earth, I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true without a shred of doubt in my mind!! I love this gospel and I love my merciful Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ more than anything else.